:cry: well I suppose this is the end of my blog..perhaps...but it just seems that I never get what I used to out of it anymore so please leave parting comments because this is the end of my blog.
:( :cry: well today was just horrible...there was too much emotional stress and there was also a lot of crying and such between good friends of mine so I don't feel too much like blogging sorry
:) Well this weekend was very unique to say the least...we went to a football game for our band like 3 hours away...then we went to cookeville afterwards and spent the night there waqiting for the college game to see my brothers march in the college band...the weather was miserable but the sound of the rain was quite peaceful... it was freezing cold so we left early right after half time to go warm up then we came home after the game and had a bunch of people over here to boogie here and have a big shindig...thats about it for my weekend and the changes are gonna take a while because I need to find the right kind of pictures for it...sorry
:D :P 8) I'm finally back everyone...WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! !!!!!!!! after that shout out I am going to be doing a bit of a change to my blog which involves in most of you voting through comments so please when I cahnge this blog be kind enough to post a comment/vote on it...trust me it will work a lot better if you do...well now that I have said that I gotta go the bus will be here very soon...darn school lol later
:D well these people must be pretty dang accurate but tell me what you think about it....I think it fits me pretty good since a lot of my friends call me the psychiatrist...well everyone tell me what ya think about it im quite curious...bye all
Well for all of those who have a good memory a long time ago I mentioned I might make a poem about the mornings so here it goes im putting things down as they hit me so dont expect it to be too good...
Mornings
I raise up from my bed, and smile with glee, as I view all the beautiful things, there is to see.
The sun is rising, barely cresting the trees, and there is the wonderous feeling, of the cool morning breeze.
The glint of the dew, on the soaking wet leaves, just magically puts, my mind at complete ease.
The birds are singing, their morning tweets, and the cool moist are, can do wonderous feats.
It can pick you up, and soar you up high, so you may see the sun rise, and the shades of the sky.
There is orange and pink, and all shades inbetween, and if anything else, morning helps me think.
:? im a bit confused about my mood because my day started out bad and then slowly became better...well I had to get up at 7:00 this morning to go to Saturday School...it was a serious pain and the worst part was I only had to make up things til 11:00 and I didn't get to leave til 2:00 it erked me bad I was bored out of my mind I was inflicting pain upon myself I was so dang bored....well anyway my dayperked up when we came home and began our series of stories we wrote and typed them out and made them all formal and sh!t so it was an ok day...welp better be goin now so see you all later...and Megalynn if you read this GET ON YAHOO!!!! ok im done now lol
:D im finally back for a few days since I'm free on the weekends....usually during the week I am grounded and such so I can't get on to the blog until the weekends...welp its a long story about me gettin grounded but it all comes down to one word...truency...if you don't know what that word means then oh well tough crap you'll have to look it up in your funk and wagnels....well better go got some more things to do and I gotta treat the Salamander we got right and such so later alls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!
:( arf well this morning I am a bit sad because I had a dream that was kinda cool but supposed to be a nightmare last night but I ca't remember hardly any of it...oh well cest la vie it could be worse...its about time for school but my dad is subbing at the school today so I didn't have to ride the bus...yay! theres hope in them there hills for me yet....welp better go later!
not too much happened today...just another school day like so many I have had already...although now Megan and I are even better friends although now I am a kidden instead of a piggie...(long story)...anyway I hope all of you willing enough to enter my site had a great day and I will see you some other time if I know you in the real world...later
:? ok this dream left me a bit confused and worried both at the same time....ok there was total darkness other than me and another 2 people...I couldn't make out who the 2 people were until I got up close...I recognized my old martial arts trainer Ron and someone else who I am not placing in this blog for certain reasons...well all of a sudden ron started trying to hurt her...that's when I went in to help...he started choking her and lifted her off the ground...I did a double snap kick in the air one of them coming down on his wrist and the other up on his elbow....he screamed in pain as his arm broke but was right back into action and did an outside kick snapping my knee cap into 2...he then proceeds to pick me up by the throat in the air and I begin to black out...I hear her screaming and trying to get Ron to let me go but it was no use....right as I was about to die I woke up in my bed swaeting and with my throat hurting so bad I wanted to cry...and I never cry...so I walked downstairs and got something to drink...then I dreamed the same things again...right as soon as I went back to sleep but this time I didn't wake up with my throat hurting...it was so freaky it made me sick...well time for something else that mkes me sick...school lol :P
:twisted: I hate life...is there any reason why I should love my life the way it is???? I mean come on I am a 14 year old stuck up asshole with no real place to be and nowhere I can call home and fit in to comfortably...my own damn house seems foreign like I don't belong where I am...I have some serious problems as you can most likely tell...well then again I do have a couple true friends...but thats still not enough. call me greedy if you want but its the truth. having a couple good friends...and I am only sure about 2 of them...is just not enough...there has to be something more for me...but I can't find it and I am running out of patience...my mind is slipping into a limbic state of perpetulating darkness where I see nothing hear nothing feel nothing and smell nothing...there is nothing...and apparently it is effecting my life outside my head as well...its like my only purpose in life is to make others aggrivated...its not like I make anyone feel good or maybe help someone out with their problems the right way...I am just a nusiance that bugs others....and if that's true then I technically shouldn't be around anyone nor should I be on the earth...call me crazy but I see it all that way...I just need something to change in my stupid life now....its about time for a change
ok well I have decided to just flow out with a poem in a couple of minutes you can believe me or not when I say that I made this while I made this blog...ok here it goes
Backwards World,
the world spins, it has a certain flow, but my world, doesn't know where to go.
it tried to go normal, but couldnt make the cut, it went outta orbit, and got stuck in a rut.
it got out of the rut, and tried once more, only to find himself, outside the social door.
so now it spins backwards from all, the big and small, and it flows kinda smooth, but it still wants to try, to get into the groove.
and so it's orbit is wobbly, threatening to fall, and ruin my world, once and for all.
well there ya have it kinda cheesy but not bad for a poem I just pulled outta my ass...lol
well last night was quite the ordeal really...it was a long night I can tell you that much...first off Jared came over and I could tell then and there he was in a pissy mood...later he told me that miss sitz had really erked him and maybe it was some other stuff too but he didnt tell me the rest...well he was in such a pissy mood about all that shit that he and I got in to it.... :oops: I am emberrased to say I didn't have the ability to control my mind during the time and my temper got out of hand....so I took a swing at him and it grazed him a bit but didn't do damage...then he pinned me down and calmed me down while I was screaming in anger and frustration...I felt like an asshole afterwards...so it just goes to show all of you that I am not all good and no one is nor ever will be so take that into consideration before approaching me because next time you do it might not turn out so good as the time before... not tryin to ward you off or anything but approach with caution because the mask has to come down eventually to show the beast that is behind it.
